I wrote the following piece earlier this past week in response to a negative comment.
Since posting it, people have been asking me if I am okay. Let me set the record straight. I am absolutely, 100% completely okay. In fact, I am better than okay (I totally ran 6 mph in training today…for 15 seconds…).
I want to make it crystal clear that whatever sad words were spoken, they were not directly about me, however, I felt compelled to speak up about it because it mattered to me.
I’ve been made fun of for my weight my entire life. I have always been taller, bigger, and out of place in a crowd. I have learned that the age old saying “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me” is actually a load of crap. Words do hurt. They hurt us deeply until we learn that they are just that; words.
You see, we allow ourselves to place negative connotations on words like “fat” and “overweight” and by doing so, the true power of those words lies in our own hands. Once we choose to take control of our emotions and we remove these connotations, we are able to empower and free ourselves from the clutches of that negativity.
So for me, those loosely collected words spoken on the weekend were just words. What angered me most was that someone thought it was okay to undermine a running crew that works hard to be inclusive of all fitness levels, all backgrounds, and encourages diversity. That it was apparently okay to be disrespectful in a community that is supposed to lift each other up, not tear each other down. However, no matter what was said, it is important to remember that those words say more about the person saying them then they ever will about me or the crew, and that is why I am choosing to operate from a space of love.
I truly believe that in order to change the world, we need to be the change. If we want to see more love in the world, then we need to create space for more love. As I sit here writing my own words down, I was reminded of how inspired I was by these beautiful words written by Brittin Oakman:
So for me, the answer is simple. Rise up, cheer on, and love hard. Life is too short to let anyone or anything dull your light.
Yours swiftly + most definitely “full of it”,