I knew in my heart of hearts going into yesterday’s Toronto Yonge Street 10k that it probably wasn’t going to be my best race, but in true eternal optimistic Alex fashion, I still believed it was possible to snag a personal best. After all, race day is always a surprise.
Let me start off by highlighting all the great things about yesterday:
1. The weather was cold but the sun was out and the sky was so beautifully blue.
2. My brother in law ran with me and it was his first 10k race so I was so happy to be a part of that.
3. I ran the whole thing, no walking, which I admit, still impresses me to this day.
4. I was cheered on by an amazingly aggressive friend at the finish that brought out my beast mode and I sped to the finish faster than I ever have before because the cheering looked a lot like this:
5. My watch told me I broke a new 10k record time.
And that’s where the positive turns into the negative. That watch is a LIAR. While I still beat my time from last year’s race, it did not beat my personal best 10k time, and I am super bummed about it. I’m mostly bummed that I didn’t put the work into training for this race that I should have and I’m bummed that I’m the only one to blame for it.
BUT, the silver lining here (you see what I did there? You best BELIEVE I’m turning this into a positive!) is that I am learning not every race is going to be great or, that it has to be.
Did I still find joy in the run? Absolutely. Do I still want to race? More than ever. As bummed as I am, I’m also inspired to take this hate fire of disappointment I have for my results and work harder to crush my goals. I know better than anyone that my training journey won’t be easy, but I also know that the feeling I get after achieving something great is infinitely, out of this world worth it.
So as I end this post, I’m realizing, I’m not really bummed, I’m determined and hungry for more.